Allowing myself to enjoy ‘childish’ things has been both healing and relieving. I am not interested in being a 'proper’ adult, I prefer to enjoy my cartoons, toys and whimsical oddities whilst eating off a plastic hello kitty plate.
Are you the “I will eat the good food first and let the bad come last” neurodivergent or the “I will suffer through the bad food first so I can end with the good” neurodivergent?
Amy Dunne // Nickie Zimov // Carol Lee, To Die For // Marie Alsing // Anne Sexton, A Self Portrait in Letters // As Tears Go By (1988) dir. Wong Kar Wai // Fyodor Dostoevsky in a letter to his wife Anna Dostoevsky, 28 August 1879 // Aron Wiesenfeld // Margaret Atwood, from “Thoughts From Underground”
Amy Dunne // Nickie Zimov // Carol Lee, To Die For // Marie Alsing // Anne Sexton, A Self Portrait in Letters // As Tears Go By (1988) dir. Wong Kar Wai // Fyodor Dostoevsky in a letter to his wife Anna Dostoevsky, 28 August 1879 // Aron Wiesenfeld // Margaret Atwood, from “Thoughts From Underground”
It makes me angry that you couldn’t see how scary you were.
How I had to hide us in the bathroom until you stopped yelling.
How we had to leave with her in the car and be out for a couple of hours until we came home to see that you calmed down.
How we had to lie awake in bed at night until you stopped crying and screaming, hoping no one would knock on the door, but secretly wishing someone would end this.
Yeah you weren’t scary at all. And all the adults do is live in denial. You all make me feel so sick and feel so guilty for feeling this way. Yet you blame the children for being so ungrateful, so disgraceful because we don’t want to be here anymore.
